Sometimes I get so tired of the healing journey.. there’s always something to heal, always something to improve.. 

Life has been feeling so heavy for me lately because I’ve had so many things happening all at once.. And I was trying to fix or control everything. Do this thing differently, or that thing.. Trying to heal this, heal that.. But instead it felt like everything just kept getting worse and worse 😭 

I was feeling so confused and frustrated bc I felt like I was doing so much and getting no results!! I began to lose faith in healing.. and I felt like my only option was to just let “Jesus take the wheel.” 

But here’s the silver lining:

I think I just needed to make it to the point where I lost all faith in healing so I would have to truly “give up” and fully accept the reality I have been living.. 

that I am the way that I am,

that my partner is the way that he is, 

that work is the way that it is, 

that the world is the way that it is.. 

that things are 

just

the way 

that they are.. 

And it was almost like once I (reluctantly) accepted this reality, once I “gave up;” only then was I able to to truly begin to connect with the present moment.. 

And in the middle of a messy life, I was finny to feel at peace. Nothings fully resolved for me, but I feel at peace. 

Maybe it’s the energy of the new moon in Aries (♈️ baby here) or something else.. but I have been enjoying so much living day by day! I feel like living this way definitely allows me to be more present 🫶🏼✨